Friday, February 8th, 2008
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1:55 am
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i just don't know anymore.
i want out.
of this whole entire life.
i forfeit.
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Monday, October 29th, 2007
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9:56 am - My Girlfriend's One year Present to me... I Love her so much.
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October 20th, 2007 One year. Twelve months. Fifty-two weeks. Three hundred and sixty-five days. Eight thousand-seven hundred and sixty hours. Five-hundred-twenty five thousand, six hundred minutes. Thirty one million, five-thousand and thirty-six seconds. That’s how long we’ve been together. We’ve shared all of that time, and filled it with love. That means a lot to me. You’ve been patient with me, teaching me and helping me all along the way. We’ve experienced a lot together ( and sat on the couch bored a lot together ). We’ve grown together (and regressed to childish fights and laughing fits together). We’ve accomplished a lot, and im looking forward to doing so much more with you. You are my everything, even though you say that I am my everything. You are as big a part of me as my heart or lungs. ( or my vagina ;) ) . I need you, I literally can’t breathe without you. I cant focus without you, I would just kind of suck at living without you. Even that one day that we were apart, I felt like half my soul had been ripped away. I love you more than I think even I can comprehend. I hope you can see how much I care about you. I know that sometimes I don’t show it. I go into space-cadet mode, I get bitchy (A.K.A attitude whore), or I take you for granted and act inconsiderate or thoughtless(forgetting to give you the flowers I got you, and then sulking like I hurt my own feelings or something). I don’t enjoy that I do those kinds of things. Whenever something like that happens, and you bring it to my attention, I feel extremely guilty, but I just get angry and defensive because im not doing my job correctly. ( just like I get pissed at work when you point out my inbox is full) . Im sorry for that. I really do appreciate that you point those things out, because without you correcting me, I wouldn’t be able to fix them. You help me to become the best person I can be. Thank you. So much. I appreciate you. I love you. I don’t want to take you for granted, because every day that you’re with me is like a gift that I should, and do, cherish. I love you baby. Don’t ever forget. So here’s to sixty-three-million, seventy-two-thousand seconds. One million, fifty-one-thousand, two hundred minutes. Seventeen-thousand, five-hundred and twenty hours. Seven hundred and thirty days. One hundred and four weeks. Fourteen months. Two years. October 20th, 2008. I’m looking forward to it. <3
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9:39 am - FINALLY
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Tuesday, October 23rd, 2007
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8:52 am
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the weekend was wonderful. we didn't get to go on the balloon ride tho... : ( the weather was bad. but pics of everything else will be up soon!
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Monday, October 15th, 2007
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2:26 pm
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So its all set up!
Check in at the Thurston House is 4pm-7pm on Friday which is good because we get out of work at 3pm that day!
The website says its the most romantic room they have there. I think it looks great. I love the blue. And the whole reason we even picked it was because of the claw foot tub :-p
Then on Saturday morning we have to get up at 5:30am and drive 40 mins to meet Bob Carlton at a McDonald's off of I-4 by 6:15am
And then we have reservations at the Citrus Resturaunt at 7pm where I'm sure we'll both order the wood grilled 8oz. Filet Mignon with fresh vegetables, fennel whipped potatoes, and garlic & herb butter.
It's none of your business what we do after dinner ;-)
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Tuesday, October 9th, 2007
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12:07 pm
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so, this dr. farrell thing is really starting to bother me.
i've been going up there every other saturday to do group and an individual session. i have to drive an hour and a half each way.
well i've been a late everytime.
the first time i was only a few minutes late.
the second time i was so late that she had to bump it up to the next hour.
this last time i totally missed it.
but in my defense, EVERYTIME i have been late or this last time when i was going to miss it i have called WELL in advance.
its not like my appointment was for 5 and I called at 5:15 to tell her I was going to be late or couldn't make it. it was more like my appointment was at 5 I didn't get to leaving til about 3:45 and called her at about 4.
well the last time I called her about 4:00-4:15 to let her know I wasn't going to make it and I'd just see her at group. i mentioned on the message that i wanted to reschedule maybe for the next day or something.
well i got to group and i apoligized to her and she said not to worry about it but nothing else really. after group was done she gave me and Nupie packets to fill out.
well i waited a while to see if she was going to email me or something to set up another appointment. nothing. finally after about a week and a half, maybe even two weeks i wrote her an email, apologizing again and then asking when would be a good time to set up another appointment.
i recieved and email from her the next day about the topic for group. nothing about an appointment. then the day after that i got another email which was the same as last time, but with a footnote added.
i wrote the email to her on the 2nd. its been a week today and still no response.
i don't really know what to do now. i've already had a couple sessions with her. everyone in group seems to like her. she writes letters.
ugh. this really fucking blows.
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Wednesday, October 3rd, 2007
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9:01 am
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baltimore was good. d.c. was okay. would have been better if we didn't have to be out there for 12 hours straight. every resturaunt we went to the whole trip sucked. it was good getting away.
uhm thats about it.
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Thursday, September 27th, 2007
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10:07 am
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so we're off to Baltimore. hope new kitty riley will be okay without our love and attention. there will be plenty of people here....... but still, no one will love her like we will.... : (
so anyway.
yeah. off to baltimore. see ya!
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Wednesday, September 26th, 2007
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3:19 pm
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so i'm getting another kitty to add to my collection tonight. :o)
but everyone keep in mind, momma is having kittens this week... so in about 8 weeks or so i'll have a buncha little lovers running around needing a home.... if you want one, hit me up.
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Tuesday, September 25th, 2007
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4:30 pm
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i am starting to accept that fact that i really might have bi-polar disorder.
it sucks.
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Tuesday, September 18th, 2007
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5:05 pm
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i long for Blowing Rock, NC. I NEED IT!
bah.
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Monday, September 17th, 2007
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8:44 am
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oh yeah i forgot.
me and nupie are saving up money so we can go on a balloon ride for our 1 year anniversary.
thats going to be wonderful <3
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8:41 am
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okay so jared got out like he was supposed to. everything went according to plan. no house arrest, no probation, nothing. i'm glad all that shit is over with... now its getting him a job.......................................................................
not much else is really going on.
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Wednesday, September 12th, 2007
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4:03 pm
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i am so upset right now.
jared was looking at some serious prison time. he called me, i went and picked him up from the courthouse before they could put him in cuffs and take him away. we didn't know what to do. we knew he couldn't run for that long, especially with a kid on the way.
nupie's dad agreed to represent him. jared went back said he was obtaining counsel and they continued the case.
that next court date he went and ashley went too. they revoked his bond. he got thrown in jail.
he's been sitting there for 3 months.
he scores for 28 months prison time. we're trying to work around that.
after that first court date he was told that he would be out the next month. when that court date came around ashley said that he had it all worked out but the prosecuter up and left so the deal was null and void and he'd have to make a new deal with the new prosecuter.
well that was a lie. because i read a letter to the new prosecuter naming each case and the deal we had worked out. all those cases were worked out exactly the same way. when the letter got to jared's name ashley said they hadn't had that worked out yet and to just continue it.
so thats another month. this time we were all promised that he would get out tomorrow free and clear. no probation. no house arrest. no nothing. well. here it is today the 12. jared's court date tomorrow.
i just typed up a letter to the prosecuter. it said "hey i forgot to talk to you about jared hoffman's case when we were in that meeting this week. i think he should be reinstated on house arrest, what do you think?"
it is 4:00 pm the day before his court date.
i have a feeling hes not coming home tomorrow.
oh man i'm so angry.
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Tuesday, September 11th, 2007
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8:51 am - so this is how it went....
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okay. so it turns out that this isn't working so well. this is my formal request for you to find somewhere else to go.
it turns out having you live here has been more of a burden than a help. not because of anything you have done intentionally. it just turned out that way.
first of all, this is not half your house. it is mine. my name is on the lease, i have sole responsibility of this place. when it comes down to it, what i say goes. and you only paid half of everything one month by the way.... anyway, i can not live my life with someone else constantly undermining my authority in my own house. i will not accept that.
you told me first coming into this that you were a tidy person. that has proved true.... in your own room. in the rest of the house however you have not shown any signs of that, ever. this cannot be half your house if you do not treat it like your house. and if this is how you treat your houses (which its not because i've been to your houses) then thats fine, but i will not have it here.
another thing that has caused problems is you not ever buying anything for the house. i get all the garbage bags, all the paper towels all the cleaning supplies all the food all the drink. nupie even buys cat food and litter that your cat uses! you brought one bag of cat food with you when moving here, never bought a bag again. you only bought litter once when nupie asked you to. and you never clean the litter pan out. it seems that you expected a free ride (minus having to pay rent), i'm sorry to burst your bubble, but its not happening.
i also will not have people fucked up at all times of the day and night coming here and staying here. i do not get fucked up. i do not want it around me. i am not 16, nor do i act like it. i have a job, bills to pay, responsibilties and obligations. i take care of mine. i don't get fucked up and party with my friends all night and ditch work. thats not how i roll. i don't see why anyone above the age of 20 would do that either. but this is your life, use it as you may. but not here.
i told ian he could stay here for one month on Friday September 7. So I expect you both to have found somewhere else to go by October 7.
i keep going back to something my mom told me when i started living on my own... "the quickest way to ruin a friendship with someone is to live with them." this has proven true on many occasions. i hope it doesn't have to on this one.
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Friday, September 7th, 2007
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2:08 pm
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the money situation all worked out. i'm not sure if it was real or fake. but the safe at 7-11 took it. so i'm straight.
i got another job today. i'm gonna be working at dialamerica part time now.
monday-thursday 5:30-10:00 and saturday 9:30-2:30
i'm going to be working 60 something hours a week.
13 and a half hour days.
yay for me.......................
but i'll only do it long enuff to get my financial situation back up to par.
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Thursday, September 6th, 2007
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10:55 am
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by the way, possesion or manufacturing of counterfeit U.S. currency is punishable by up to 15 years.
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9:55 am
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so shiney gave me a counterfiet $100 bill for rent.
i don't want to say that he did it on purpose. but when i brought it up he got really defensive and swore the bank gave it to him. since he said the bank gave it to him that tells me flat out 100% hes lying. plus after he said the bank gave it to him heather was like "well if they give you shit for it just tell them that shiney gave it to you and they'll come talk to him. shiney got really wide eyed and nervous (cuz he knows its fake). and i said "no, i don't want to get anyone in trouble here."
the second i looked at the bill i knew it was fake. i mean don't get me wrong, it looks pretty real.
but the texture is that of regular paper. its much thicker but at the same time thinner than a real bill. i actually had a real $100 bill to compare it to. i crumpled them each in each one of my hands at the same time. nope. not similar at all.
and not to mention is was in nearly mint condition... but its a series 1988.
i ripped a little part of it. and i ripped a little part of the real one. they're completely different feeling. different textures. different everything. completely different material.
i don't know what the fuck to do. i have just been ripped off $100 in rent money.
i spoke to my mom, francine (the paralegal at the office) and nupie about it. i'm gonna talk to mr brown about it too. and i might end up showing them all just so i have witnesses.
then i'm going to have val check it with one of those pen things at 7-11. if i am correct and it is counterfeit i'm going to confront shiney about it one more time. ask for a real $100. if he refuses, i will go to the police. period. i will have 5 witnesses on my side saying i am not lying.
this shit isn't gonna fly.
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Wednesday, September 5th, 2007
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10:31 am
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i'm getting really sick of my living situation.
last night i made chicken and noodles. the chicken was awesome. the noodles kinda sucked. i cooked them on too high so they stuck all grossly to the bottom of the pot. and of course with all the olive oil and butter i used on the chicken that left some pretty nasty stuff on the pan. know what i did? i left it.
i didn't clean that shit up.
its still sitting there. until SOMEONE ELSE cleans it.
apparently that is the house rule. leave your shit lying around until someone else picks it up.
i can play that way if thats how everyone wants to play.
jared should be out in a week and a day. hes not gonna be happy with whats been going on around there. he said himself. we'll see. if he's willing to get a job and pay the bills they are more than welcome to have that room back.
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Tuesday, August 28th, 2007
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8:50 am
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so i have about $300 or so in my savings account again. which i'm happy about. i hate not having money in my savings. it makes me feel idle. me and nupie were actually talking about it yesterday. when i'm not saving money i'm not really doing anything. i'm just living paycheck to paycheck. i mean i'm working and making money. but its not going anywhere. i'm not going anywhere. but when i'm saving, when i'm building up money in my savings account then i'm going somewhere. i mean it might look like i'm doing the same thing as when i'm living paycheck to paycheck, but i'm not. when i'm saving i'm building a future. when i'm living paycheck to paycheck i'm not doing anything but living. there is no greater good. theres just this. soooooooo i'm very glad to see my savings account growing. i think it has to do with the fact that my roommates are giving me rent money and i don't have to carry the burden (almost) completely alone. so yeah. good stuff.
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